I’ve recently made some rather drastic decisions in my life that will affect my “career” for years to come. Potentially.
I decided that I no longer can – what felt like to me – suffer by working in a corporate office environment. I would spend most of my days looking out of the window to see the greenery; the trees, the grass, the sky and wish I was amongst it. Breathing in the fresh air, and curling my bare toes into the grass was all I could think about. Which made everything I was currently doing seem even more pointless and strange.
Humans have become used to the structure of work. We commute, we drink coffee, we have meetings, we stare at a computer screen for most of the day, and then we head back home to spend just a few hours of personal time living life before exhaustion brings us to our bed ready for another early start.
This is common life for most people. I’m not trying to suggest there’s anything wrong with that, I could accept, and have, most of the 9-5 style structure. But I ended up at a point where I felt like an alien. An otter in a pack of dogs; we share some similarities and sure I can hang around here on land but everything about my being yearns to be back in the water.
Despite all the deadlines, despite all the anxiety, the thing that hurt most was that I felt like I didn’t belong here – at least not anymore. So I left that world, and decided to work on something that’s important to me right now.
Right now, at this moment, I’m passionate about something. I want to share it with the world, and utterly commit myself to it. That’s how I work, I’m optimistic and passionate but can pretty much only focus on one main thing at a time. This is something I’ve learnt about myself, and most importantly it is something I have learnt to be OK with.
Since I gave up the 9-5, people in discussions have used words like “brave”, or a phrase like “I wish I could do that”. With these positive inclinations – forgetting the negative ones, and there are those too – I don’t get a warm feeling of smug like I thought I might. I only find myself simply stating that I’m not doing anything special, and they could do exactly the same if they wanted to.
What it comes down to is a choice. Often, though, ones choice is influenced by those things that are important right now. These are often important factors, regardless of preference. With a regular paying job things like health, pension, the rent, is all taken care of and these are without a doubt important things in life that we need to take care of.
Fortunately for me my youth is still intact, and my health, and I don’t feel the impending worries of my pension, or to an extent how I’m going to pay the rent. I’m optimistic that all of these things will work out. Because I have the energy and the desire to create a life that works for me by bringing value to the world.
What is important to me is not necessarily important to you, or anyone else. What is important to me right now is the things I need to focus on to be happy at this moment in my life. That is something which is probably going to change with time, but I am completely accepting of that.
Most people seem to be set in a mind set that picking what you do is something for life, and that you won’t be able to divert off from that. If you do, expect to be poor and unhappy. I don’t want to live my life in this way, and I don’t believe the lie.
I want to live a lifestyle that matches with my erratic mind, where my passions and focus change over time and thus so does my work. For the most part society might not yet be accepting of this kind of lifestyle, but that’s not going to stop me from living a life I want for myself. Rules are meant to be broken, aren’t they?
What’s important in your life right now, are you working on those important things, and if not, why not?